I'll give you a little confession and I'm not proud of this but I've been really ridiculously

frustrated with myself lately and maybe some of you can relate but I'm just not happy

with the way I've been responding to so much that's going on in the world.

I'll try to give you some context with all of the world events that are taking place.

I am a Christian, I am a pastor, I should be full, a faith but I have been unsettled which

is a spiritual way of saying I've been worried.

I'm kind of baptizing the word a little bit.

I have been anxious and trying to trust God but I just, I haven't been feeling comfortable

with what I've been seeing.

To add insult to injury, I've been way too self-centered in my leadership and in caring

for people.

I want to be a servant and I want to be others focused but I've just been too much about

me.

On top of that I've been inconsistent meaning I have a lot of goals to improve and to become

better and to be more like price and then I can crush it for a little while and then

I fall back and I try not to work too much and I don't and then I do and I try to be loving

it work and I am and I come home and I'm impatient and I'm just not proud of my inconsistencies

and then on top of all of that some of you wouldn't understand this but I'm just really

aware of my mortality.

I know that I look like I'm 28 years of age but I have aging so fast.

My eyesight is just like going like my iPad, I might have the thoughts so big I may have

three words on the page before long.

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