Hello there. It's Morgan here and welcome to today's episode. Today I'm going to be talking about that

feeling that struggle of trying to say what you've been trying to say and whether it's something

small that you're just trying to even communicate with people that you live with

or it's something big that it's someone that you've known for a while or whether you see them all

the time or not and whether you speak with them all the time or not but you're just finding

yourself thinking about I wish I could just figure out or not and whether you speak with him all the time or not, but you're just finding yourself

thinking about, I wish I could just figure out how to communicate this to them. I wish I could

have just said it that way. And maybe then they would have gotten it. Maybe if I had sent it as a text

instead of speaking it out loud or the other way around,

or maybe if I had used more words or less words, or maybe I should have given them the

silent treatment, whatever it is, just that complexity, that unsettled aspect of not quite knowing if you're saying,

saying something in the way that you've been trying to say it. And even that may sound a bit

vague because that's how it is. When there's something unspoken, something that seems to go beyond language or

outside of language and words and how we use them. And we may find ourselves getting stuck. And perhaps

there's some people who don't even think about this stuff. And they're just like, I just live my life. I don't worry. I say what I say and then I move on. And okay,

if that's your experience, that's your experience. Not at all my experience. I definitely have a

very different experience. I tend to speak in a way that I'm constantly thinking about

every single word that's coming out of my mouth because I have to, being autistic and the

particular struggles that I have with communication, I have to spend a lot of time thinking about

words, how they sound, how they fall, what they mean,

multiple meanings, multiple interpretations.

So this is a daily thing for me, is saying, did I actually say what I was trying to say?

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