Welcome to the Crazy Love podcast. We all know how to look alive on the outside, even when our hearts are far from God.

In this honest and convicting message, Francis Chan shares his own struggle with spiritual drift, how even good things like ministry,

family, and rest can slowly take the place of loving Jesus.

He calls us to examine the gap between our reputation and our reality, and return to a sincere, wholehearted pursuit of Christ.

I've pastored in Seamy Valley for the last 16 years

and believe the Lord is leading me to something new, still not sure.

In fact, even last night, my wife, as we're flying home from Florida

last night, she just said, you know, do you think maybe the Lord just has you in a season where you

don't really have a home, and maybe you just, we're just called to float around and encourage the

believers for a period of time before we start the next thing? And I go, that's weird. That's totally what I've been sensing lately. And it's just kind of a unique time in our lives where we're going, we could just land in any city, in any country, and just go, let's just stay here for a few years, or let's just stay here and do this. Because all my life I've said, okay, I'll go anywhere for the Lord,

but I've never really been freed up to do that.

And, you know, I've always been careful not to get ourselves in debt

because I want that freedom, just to go wherever and do whatever

and just be open to the spirit.

So it's been a really, really fun season in my life.

And I've just had a blast today, getting to know the church and hanging out with you guys.

But if I'm totally honest, I was just in between, just after the last service in Brits' office and just praying.

I haven't been at total peace with the last two services.

I mean, they went well. Everything was great. The Word of God was taught. And I believe that good things have happened. I believe it was a spirit-filled time. But you know, those times when you just go,

there's just something else. There's something else. And so if you don't mind, I'm going to go a little bit of a different

direction this service. And you can get the tape from last service if you want. And go, okay,

that's what everyone else heard. But here's what hasn't been sitting well with me.

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