Hey guys. I'm Jerry. I'm Sierra. We're ladies. And we tangent.

What's up, everyone?

Hello.

Not that I was staring at you creepy.

I know I was so painfully aware that that was happening that I was delaying.

I've just kind of been like in a fog of dissociation. Oh, I caught it as soon as I started the camera. I was like, she's on another planet. Yeah, I don't know why. I just feel like I've got a lot going on up here. And so I'm just like, I don't realize I'm doing it until people call me out on it. Like we've seen on the episode I've done it before. If I'm not like an active conversation, I'll just be like, it's literally, it feels like I just shut off. And then someone will be like, hey, and I'm like, zoop. You go into screensaver mode. Someone just needs to jiggle your mouse a little bit. Yes. And then I'm like, whoa, I'm in public. I'm in public with a group of people. Hello. Yeah. It's fun to watch my kids dissociate. And then I spiral because I'm like, oh my God, what's going on? I don't know what a normal level of dissociation is. Like if everybody has a normal level of dissociation. I'm just like, because I feel like there's that moment where you can just like clock out. Yeah. And you're aware of it. Like that happens to me. Sometimes I like to do it. Sometimes I'm like, what if I just? And then it just like shuts off and I'm like, nice. Yeah. But then other times I feel like I'm like completely not aware that it's happening like I said until someone points it out so I don't know I don't know what

because then you're like how long have I been doing this I believe I've lost time no honestly

yeah I was sick last week and I was like down bad yeah so if anybody we didn't put out a Patreon episode this last Friday. Correct. It is coming out next Friday. So we do have on Patreon, we do two a month for the higher tiers. We just had to do it. Postpone it. Yes. Because still, you're still getting two in the month of February. Yeah. But Jerry was like, hey, we planned on getting together to record.

And she's like, I think you shouldn't come here.

I thank you so much for that because my entire, like both my kids were sick a lot in the last month.

I ended up not getting anything that they had except for like little

touches of it. But, um, oh, I might have had a little bit of the flu the one day. But it, it didn't last.

Yeah. So I appreciate you. Yeah. I was down being aware for the count. Wednesday was the day

that I said, hey, don't come over. Yep. I went to bed at probably like seven o'clock.

And Rachel and I had recorded on Tuesday night virtually, again, because her daughter, Piper,

has cystic fibrosis. And so we're very careful about being around each other when either one of us is sick

or one of us being me.

Either if I'm sick or my kids are sick.

Yeah.

So we virtually recorded.

And on Wednesday, I said I was going to send her the files for her to edit.

I did not do that.

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