What's up you guys welcome back to big little life with the dash leezon today is a special day

Ash why don't we just why don't you say why today is a special day today's George's birthday his third birthday

That's our little boy. I can't believe he's already three. I can't either

Man, but these are a weird thing for me from for my kids. Why because it's like so happy that they're getting older

But also it's like the

The memorial of the day. I had like crazy surgery to get them out of me

Yeah, which was traumatizing to me

Yeah, so it is like I try not to let my mind go there

And I just focus on the happy stuff and shower them with gifts and love

But also it's like three years ago today. I was like a wreck

Like as a cc for me to think of the happy

Things about George because I didn't have to go through that

You know when you're walking along the beach and you see the jellyfish that have been washed up on the shore

Uh-huh. They're just like not doing well

Yeah, that's like my greatest comparison to how I feel after having a c-section

Baby like your stomach used to be nice and round and soul like not even that just like

They're just like these jellyfish that wash up on the sand and they just can't live life anymore and they're just dying

That's how you felt after your c-section. Yeah

I could see that your abs literally ripped in half

Well, no, it's not like

Comparing it to my body just like the jellyfish just the feeling the I feel like how they feel as they lay dying on the sand

Is how I felt

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