I'm sitting here trying to figure out how to begin this episode.

When our podcast first started, I would script these intros out very meticulously.

And as time has marched on, I've realized that it's critically important to let myself be and feel and speak

from the heart.

I'm also thinking about the fact that so often when I'm in therapy sessions, shout out to my

therapist.

She's incredible and very much my home girl.

But often when I'm in these sessions, she asks me to locate where I'm feeling my feeling.

Because I have a tendency, surprise, surprise, to intellectualize everything.

That is never just about feeling it, but it's always about what the feeling means. Where did it come from? What lesson am I

supposed to learn? So, to get out of my mind and into my body, which I invite you to do with me,

the feeling I'm feeling is sadness.

There's some anger and rage and frustration and a lot of fear mixed up in it, too, if I'm honest.

And it's just manifesting in a set of hot tears coming from my eyes.

But really the place where I feel it is in my chest.

Every breath feels heavy.

I feel like I'm gasping for something that should already belong to me.

For something that I should have just because I'm human.

And for something that keeps feeling further and further out of reach

because somebody else feels like I'm not human.

Yesterday was the day was like, I'm not human.

Yesterday was the day that a lot of our lives changed for at least the next four years, for I hope, just the next four years.

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