my lips were sweating, my arms were sweating, my shins were sweating. I, full body was sweating.

And I remember thinking, oh, no, something is like terribly wrong with me. Like, I remember thinking,

oh, this is like, this is like sort of beyond an emergency situation. I'm a lot, I'm buckled

into my seat on a flight and it's an early morning flight so everyone was asleep.

And I remember there was a man beside me, this older man, and I tapped him and I said,

I think you need to call help something's really wrong with me. Like I was, and I was,

I had an acquaintance on the flight like down a row going to the same event as me, but everyone

was asleep. And I was like, asleep and I was like I felt so

alone I felt so scared and I felt like I always tell people I felt like that feeling where

you're like I'm about to projectile vomit or something like urgent you know when you're like

oh my gosh like I need to get to the bathroom or need you off the plane or like it was just so urgent and I was so

terrified and I remember the flight attendant comes brings me like a cup of juice which at that point

I'm like I think I've about 10 years of juice is not going to help health problems that are

compounding into this moment and instead of something coming out of my body,

it was like me. I like just sort of had this intense, I always tell people like pressure. Like I

haven't given birth, but I would imagine it's the same feeling as giving birth, like this pressure.

And all of a sudden, it was like I was hovering over my body. And up until this

point, I would have never, I didn't believe in psychics, I didn't believe in mediums, I didn't

believe in angels. I remember I had friends in college tell me like, oh my grandfather sent me a sign

today and I remember thinking like, they're crazy, like what? And all of a sudden, I'm over my body and i am in the most euphoric

omnipresent feeling of love like everything in my life was like oh my gosh god is real like

this is what people are trying to describe through every religion through every vocabulary

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