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Hi guys. Welcome to my podcast. Cheeky's and chill. I hope that you're having a beautiful day and you have a wonderful week or weekend.

I am going to take a deep breath.

Because today I'm going to talk about something that I mentioned earlier on in the season.

It's a personal one. This is what I love of my podcast. You guys give me the opportunity to speak to you and share my deepest thoughts and feelings and that's what I'm going to do today.

So, again, earlier this season, I mentioned that I was going to file paperwork to go see my dad.

And it was accepted.

And I did go see him.

So I'm going to tell you all about that.

So take a deep breath with me.

Okay.

I don't know if you guys have watched Chikis Sim Filthro. It is my docufollow, and they did follow me to go see my dad.

Didn't talk much about the details there, just that I went to go see him. They weren't able to go in with me, the cameras.

So this is my space and my time and my opportunity to explain to you exactly what happened and what we talked about and how it went.

First of all, I decided to go see him because it's something that had been in my heart

for a while.

For a long time, I didn't want want to and in all fairness and honesty.

Um, he didn't want to see me either.

Uh, so then time passed by, time went by and my sister Jackie has been the one that has gone to go see him. And you know what? She's gotten a lot of heat for it. And I don't necessarily agree with it. Um, because people say that, okay, how can you do that to your sister, Jackie? Like she went through this, she went through that. Like I feel like, first of all, she asked me and I said, yes, sister, thank you for asking me.

You don't have to because that's still your dad.

That's still a relationship that you had and things that you need to heal.

But I do appreciate you asking me.

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