Summary
Xander gets facial feminization surgery (FFS). As she searches for a face that will finally make her feel safer and prettier, she wrestles with cis and trans beauty standards, insecurities and self-hate.
Episode Credits: Produced by Xander Adams, Cristal Duhaime and Mira Burt-Wintonick. Sound design by Cristal Duhaime, mix engineered by Xander Adams.
Original Music by David Drury.
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| 0:00.0 | All right, it is October. It is officially spooky season, which is great timing because there is a new Canadian thriller series out. It's called Wayward, and I think we should be talking about it. My name is Alameen Abdu Mahmood, and I love pop culture. And this week on my podcast promotion, I called up some of my favorite critics to get into the show about a school for troubled teens and then things start to go wrong. |
| 0:21.6 | It's just wonderful. |
| 0:22.7 | And it's bringing something new and interesting to the thriller genre. |
| 0:25.8 | For that episode and a whole lot more, you can find and follow Commotion with Alameen Abdul Mahmoud on YouTube or wherever you get your podcasts. |
| 0:34.3 | This is a CBC podcast. |
| 1:03.0 | Just woke up in recovery I don't recommend recording I don't recommend recording yourself after anesthesia mostly because sometimes |
| 1:09.8 | people say mean things. Oh yeah I wanted to ask if this is my first second or third time waking up. |
| 1:20.6 | Probably like your second. I hope I was nice the first time oh the pause there sounded ominous |
| 1:35.3 | no you're good oh no do you go by them oh absolutely not, absolutely not. That phase is over. |
| 1:45.0 | Okay, just let it check. |
| 1:47.0 | I just don't have it in me after being intubated to like speak with a higher voice. |
| 1:52.0 | Yeah, no, you're good. |
| 1:55.0 | You should be comfortable. |
| 1:57.0 | In this society? |
| 2:00.0 | Yeah. In this society? From CBC, this is Love Me, a show about the messiness of human connection. |
| 2:12.4 | Today's episode, Undeniable. |
| 2:32.1 | I started my hunt for a new face in July 24 with a medical necessity letter for my insurance. |
| 2:35.2 | Miss Adams presents herself as female. |
| 2:40.9 | The dysphoria that she expresses is due to her facial features that have masculine characteristics, including prominent browbones, receding hairline, wide and defined jaw. |
| 2:48.6 | Standing in front of my bathroom mirror, |
| 2:54.4 | I would hold my fingers up to the sides of my face and cover the edges of my jaw, |
| 2:57.4 | tipping my nose up with my thumb. |
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