But I said to the Lord, I just am so needy. I am so broken. It feels like there's nothing

left of me. This man has such a big part of me. I feel your presence, but what am I?

What do I do?

Losing a spouse is such an emotional, confusing time, but God can show up even in those

hard moments, and you'll hear more today about that. On focus on the family, with

focus president Jim Daley, and I'm John Fuller.

Last time John, we heard the first half of this amazing testimony from Robin Dykstra, who

grew up in a good home that was missing a key ingredient, faith. And we heard how Robin

dropped out of college and became a cocktail waitress, married a gangster, and then escaped

from him when he became abusive. Robin eventually reconnected with an old boyfriend who was

a very strong Christian, and she accepted Christ mainly so that they could get married.

Her nickname for him was get this hot and hunky, and today we're picking up the story

after the birth of their first son when the Lord finally got Robin's full attention.

Here now is Robin Dykstra, and as you might have guessed, if you have young children nearby,

you might want to use your earbuds or listen later via our podcast or our daily broadcast

app.

When the doctor put that child on my chest, something in my heart broke open, and I thought,

I don't even know you, and I would die for you. How it, what is that? And God continued

to use that baby to demonstrate what love looked like. And then one night, he came big.

I was in the nursery, and I was rocking the child. It was the middle of the night. The

moon was coming in through Jake's bedroom window, and I was just enjoying a magical moment.

I thought, how did I get here? How does the woman like me end up in this nice house,

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