He calls the landline, the house phone, and I had a receiver in my room and I pick up and the elder staying there saying, you don't need to be talking to him. Look. And so I'm like, why are you doing this?

and I was like really with another person he was like I didn't want I didn't want to be with her

you know I was just needed to get out of there

and I was going to set up a place to come get you

and I knew if I told it was like all these excuses

and all this crazy stuff but at that point

I was just like set up a place to come get you. And I knew if I told it, it was like all these excuses and all this crazy stuff. But at that point, I was just like, I just saw this thing spinning out of control. And that's when he told me, well, your dad's left Florida. And he's coming up to get you. And you're going to go back to Florida with him. Because the last thing we need is for your husband to try to come take you.

You're pregnant with a chosen child. In order for the girl to be forgiven, she needs to confess,

like, everything that they did intimately to you, like directly to you. And I was like, I don't want to, like,

I don't care. I don't want to know all these details. I just want to kind of get out of here.

And he was like, no, this is important, like, for her salvation. So I go into this room and it's

her parents and her and then a bunch of guys. And, you know, she's basically just giving me

play by play of how this thing happened and

every detail of like what they got into. And that really to me was the catalyst for realizing like,

I have zero control over anything. I'm grown, I'm married, and pregnant.

And I can't even decide if I want to leave his place or go look for my husband or work things out with him.

It was kind of starting to come down on me at that point.

Mine is the only voice.

What have I been doing?

Lay down my autonomy.

After that, it got very dark very quickly.

Hey guys, my name is Shalise Anzola and this is Colts to Consciousness, where we discuss

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