Everybody, I had no intentions of recording anything having to do with what happened on

one Tuesday.

Generally regarding sort of these big public, what feels like then become social media campaigns.

I sort of sit back and try to reflect personally to really think about where I personally can do better,

what I can do better, how I can make a difference.

Because everything else often feels like I'm not sure it's going to do a whole lot. And that was really how I was feeling last night

after I wept through my entire dinner with my kids when I heard what happened. Many people probably

don't know this, but I grew up on the north shore of Chicago. And in the late 1980s, when I was in elementary school,

there was what was probably one of the very first school shootings of Lori Dan. She came into a

school. She, not my school, but a school, a neighboring community school, and we were all on lockdown.

I think I was in fifth grade at the time. And I just remember as the, as what happened yesterday

and this has happened with many of these school shootings before, that memory kind of coming,

flooding back to me, even though the impact on me was pretty minimal. I mean, I think I'm sure

I went about living my life, but I remember that day and when I close my eyes, I can picture

even the weather, which I think is telling as we think about trauma.

But what I want to talk to a little bit here, speak to a bit here, is the questions that I

often get when there's something like this that happens, it says, can you explain this from

a spiritual perspective?

So I'm going to try to straddle both of these worlds, as I often do, the spiritual and the

psychological.

When Sandy Hook happened, my daughter was in kindergarten, I think I spent a good minimum of two

months trying to process in therapy how I was feeling about it.

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