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I often speak about my morning walks by the river, the woods and hills and so on.

It's really a very regular part of my meditation and the way I often begin is I'll do some

meta or some of incinus practice so that I feel my heart wide open and that everything

I'm hearing and seeing and smelling really is part of my heart.

It gives the geese and the currents and the river and the sounds of other birds and trees.

This morning I was doing that. It was a beautiful, it was really misty and mysterious morning

actually and kind of wet lingering and you could just see rocks on the river and just the

water and the rocks and a few birds.

I was just including it all and all of a sudden I got completely enrapt in a spider's web.

I went from this open mist and yeah, gross, disgusting.

I was pulling it off of my face and my hair and it was, I was slimed, ghost busters.

I was completely slimed and so I started grumbling about how I was going to have to wash

my hair and in a few moments the contrast really got me going from this, the beloved holding

the universe in our heart kind of moment to disgusted, this kind of entitled princess

that was disgusted by this little spiders web.

See what hit me, I saw that contrast was how quickly I collapsed into that, really,

really quickly and then with seeing it and then just opening, I was like I laughed out loud

really, how I went on and I still felt that stickiness and I still wondered about, and I

kept going like this trying to see if the spider was crawling around inside my scalp somewhere.

But I was, there was so much more reality and dimension and presence there and left

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