Craig, how is counseling this week?

Oh, this one stood up.

This was a keeper.

This goes down in the journal.

And found myself at one point feeling like a ring later. My

counts are wonderful woman who's really on to some things they need it.

It need to be addressed and have surfaced as a result of a couple of years of some traumatic

chemo and cancer events.

And she diagnosed or suggested that I was PTSD and were working through a number of things there in it.

At one point, John.

I was in the chair and I was comfortable and my eyes are closed and she's just

asking questions and out pops this third grade Craig who was traumatized.

Then there was this younger Craig still in a crib.

And there was the seventh grade Craig and then there was a chemobrain Craig and

then someone there was an original Craig or the true Craig or some Craig another Craig.

Oh buddy.

She's trying to integrate all these different younger battered traumatized abused kids and it was just

amazing to feel your being in five or six pieces.

Yeah, right, right.

And what I want to say is, of course, of course, the trauma of multiple near-death moments and not just that because in some ways,

you know for the Christian you're like great let's go home but the trauma

around it the pain the suffering the medical the up and down and Craig just

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