Broadway's lights dimmed in that first March of the pandemic.

2020 was a hell of a year. I lost my job.

I had to move at the downsize.

I had a bad break up.

Crystal Joy Brown, she had been playing the role of Eliza in Hamilton.

I'm burning the worries, burning the letters, and I am redeeming you.

It has been an agonizing waiting game for actors like her,

not knowing when they can return to the stage, not knowing how that'll work as the coronavirus remains a threat.

So I guess the thing that concerns me the most is that it doesn't seem like anyone has real answers.

The level of stress and anxiety and having zero control, you know, sometimes you think,

well, if I just take an acting class or if I get better headshots or if I get better representation, I can work.

But this is Brown says that yes, actors are used to the unexpected, having a job, not having a job,

but the pandemic has introduced a different level of uncertainty.

A couple of weeks ago, I had kind of a tough day.

So I called my friend Karen Strotter to talk about it.

Hello, my dear. How are you?

Yeah, I just, I just had this really weird moment.

All the news today, masks are coming back.

We need to wear masks again.

And I don't know. It got me really emotional today.

I just don't feel safe anymore.

And it's just like, how are we going to do this?

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