Hi there, welcome to watch diary. My name is Ryan Snelling. Thank you so much for joining

me on this afternoon. I'm recording Tuesday 1 p.m. February 16th. Hope everybody was loved

on Valentine's Day. I know I was. It's the first time in a while because I've pretty

much been single every Valentine's Day, which is amazing because I don't have to worry

about the pressure of getting people things and thinking about others. I feel good on

Valentine's Day. Usually I don't feel so hot. Usually it's not the best day, but it felt

good. Distracted by work and didn't. I don't know. What causes you the most anxiety on

holidays? Is it seeing other people on social media having a great time? I think that's

probably what does it the most because it doesn't really bother me if I can't physically

see something. You know, if I don't go to Walmart, I don't see the decorations that are

on sale. If I don't go on social media, I don't see people celebrating. If I don't go

out to eat, I don't see other couples. So it was pretty breezy. How was it work? So the

people came to me. You know what I mean? Just had to survive the people asking for Valentine's

Day treats. That's not a thing, by the way, but it was good. Didn't really have to think

about it, which was nice. I hate that in my adult life, I pretty much feel badly during

every, every holiday now. There's not a single holiday that makes me feel good. I don't think

except Thanksgiving. Maybe that might be it, but like the Thanksgiving that we had, not this

past one, but a year ago, right after I moved here, it was maybe one of the worst feeling

holidays I've ever had in my life, a year a little over a year ago, not this past one.

So it's happened before, I guess, but I guess Thanksgiving's the only one really, because there's

not much to it. You just got to be with your family and you got to eat. And thankfully, I've

always been with at least my immediate family, and I've gotten to eat for the most part. So

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