Here's Vicki Rose. I started praying with the children daily that their daddy would come to know Jesus.

And I was so angry and so hurt and so blame-oriented. In my mind, everything was Billy's fault.

He had destroyed our family. It was all him. I thought, how am I ever going to forgive all this? I don't even want to forgive.

This is Revive Our Hearts with Nancy Lee-Demoss for Tuesday, February 10th. Here's Nancy.

Well, if you weren't able to be with us yesterday on Revive Our Hearts, you'll want to order a CD of the entire series because this is just a powerful story we're hearing this week of God's grace, his transforming ability in people's lives. Our guest is

Vicki Rose. Vicki, thank you so much for joining us here on Revive Our Hearts this week.

It is my pleasure to be here. Thank you, Nancy. We've waited for this for a long time. It's been

probably a year or two that we've been talking about doing this. And Vicki is a longtime friend of my

mother, the other

Nancy DeMoss, and has an incredible story of how she came to faith in Christ, of how God

brought her husband to faith, and how God took a hopelessly messed up marriage and two hopelessly

messed up lives and transformed them by his grace.

That is exactly right. We had reached nine and a half years of marriage and Billy was

completely addicted to cocaine and I had asked him to leave and we had a year, one and a half

and four year old child and I started going to Al-Anon meetings and I had to return to full-time work all at the same time. And both of you, I might add, from Jewish backgrounds. Correct. So we would not be expecting either of you to be sitting here on Revive our hearts today telling how Jesus changed your lives. Nor would some of our friends still expect that. Yes, that's exactly right. Testing more to God's love for his people and his grace. And let me just say that, Vicki, you have a background for those who might be interested in knowing a little bit more about the background apart from your marriage. You had a successful buying career in retail in Saks Fifth Avenue and then later at Macy's. So you knew what it was like to be successful in the world.

I died in the wool New Yorker. I was born there and raised right in the middle of Manhattan and actually have spent my whole life there until we moved to Florida eight years ago.

So I was a New Yorker through and through. I'd worked at Sacks for about eight years and then retired when our son was born in 1982.

I definitely wanted to be home, although

when I did leave work to be home with our son, I really did not have a lot of parenting

skills, a lot of mothering skills. My mother was not that nurturing of a mom, somewhat abusive,

and I didn't have anyone to come alongside me and help me learn to be a mom.

And I was pretty lost.

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