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This podcast discusses domestic violence, criminal behavior, murder, and adult themes.

While not explicit, listener discretion is advised.

The

Journal of Steve Powell, 1235 AM, December 8, 2009.

14 hours following the first report of Susan Powell's disappearance.

I am feeling sick because it is possible that Susan is dead.

Monday morning, Jenny called from Josh's and Susan's house to

tell us that the daycare lady had called her when they did not show up with the kids.

The police came to their house and this information made us extremely fearful that they might be inside,

asphyxiated from carbon monoxide or dead from some other cause.

It was a relief when the police reported that they were not in the house and their van was not in the garage.

However, the day wore on slowly with no word and with all of us wondering if they were abducted,

or if they went on an outing and were killed or trapped in a car accident.

In the evening I went to the gym and while there received a call that Josh had shown up with the

boys but not with Susan. When I was finally able to speak to him at about a 30, he said he saw her

early Monday morning at just after midnight. He was leading late for an outing with the boys.

In the various conversations I had with him Monday evening between that time and nearly midnight,

he said that he had bought a generator heater of some kind so he could go on winter outings.

When he told Susan who he said was in bed asleep that they were leaving, he says she said whatever.

He says he thought yesterday was Sunday, hence he did not call work and when he realized his error

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