Okay, I'm wearing gene shorts on a leather couch and they're making really squeaky noises and it sounds really fucking weird.

So if you hear squeaking in this episode, it's not what you think it is okay it's my gene shorts are

rubbing up against the couch I don't know why I felt the need to tell you guys that at the very beginning of this episode.

But anyways, before I really dive into the episode, I also want to make a note if you haven't already be sure to follow the

podcast on Spotify if you are listening on Spotify so you could keep up with new episodes

and also rate the podcast if you're loving, date yourself instead.

Just be sure to hit the follow button and make sure you're actually following it

because it really does help the podcast grow

and you'll also be able to stay updated the second any new

episodes drop. So over the last few days I have taken up a new persona. I don't

know what has come over me, but I feel fiery. I feel fired up and

ready to really take on the world.

I don't know what happened.

I just woke up one day and I was sick of feeling sick and tired.

I was sick of feeling sorry for myself.

I was sick of playing the victim because I just don't want to be

that person that feels like the world is out to get me but sometimes I get in my

head too much and then I think that and I go down a spiral where I think

everything in my life sucks and I'm not good enough and I'm not worthy and I have to talk myself out of it.

And it might seem like I have my shit together

and my life together because I have this great podcast

and I'm able to travel and I have amazing friends and yes all those things are true and I'm very very grateful

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