The line between my on-stage persona and off-stage identity blurs.

It's not conscious. I'm just going. Go, go, go, go all the time. The proximity to people,

I think, are cool and accomplished is addicting, intoxicating. I say funny things, and the right

people laugh. That means they like me, right?

As a young writer and performer, Sarah Benin Kusser found her voice doing stand-up comedy.

For years, it seemed better than therapy, but slowly, doubts surfaced.

While the external validation she received made her feel successful and even loved,

something was missing.

In this episode of Meditative Story, Sarah shares how she came to look inward instead of outward

for richer feelings of worth.

In this series we combine immersive first-person stories, breathtaking music and

mindfulness prompts so that we may see our lives reflected back to us in other people's stories

and that can lead to improvements in our own inner lives.

From Wait What?

This is a meditative story.

I'm Rohan and I'll be your guide. The body relaxed.

The body relaxed.

The body breathing.

Your senses open. Your mind open.

Meeting the world.

Music. I'm As I descend the stairs, I rub my hands, glad to be out of the cold.

The low-ceilinged room filled with upholstered chairs has been hastily made up to look like an upscale after-hour spot.

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