These are my personal opinions. Always seek a professional when you're making choices about your mental health and well-being.

I had somebody tell me once that they get jealous, they get angry, they get competitive, and this is a woman saying, I get competitive with

other women, and she said, no wonder they pick them over me, talking about her romantic life.

And she says, I hate the person I become. I hate when I get jealous.

I hate when I get angry.

I hate when I get competitive.

I wish I could be in a place of peace to make people want to stay.

And so I read that thinking, okay, how did I feel when I was jealous? What state of mind and state of

heart was I in? Highly insecure. I was self-conscious about my body. And I think this is what

happens when we get jealous and angry and we feel this insecurity, I think we get so far from our ego.

We want to get so far from being egoistic or being seen as narcissistic that we are at the other end of the pendulum swing.

So you might have a thought of, well, I don't want to come across as narcissistic or having a

big ego and they think badly about me.

I don't want to do that.

And that also comes with the feelings of insecurity because if you are insecure about yourself

or if you're self-conscious, then of course you're not going to have that or such a high

outlook of yourself.

And so through my years of jealousy in my 20s, was I jealous?

No, not my 30s, but in my 20s, I was a jealous person.

I was possessive and I wanted to control my partner's actions with other people

that might be potential candidates for a relationship, even though they had not shown, you know,

my partners over the years had not shown any desire to be with other people.

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