He was like, if you don't give me money, I'm going to kill us both.

And he swerved the car off the road at night and miles an hour.

Smack the curb, flipped three times in the air and crashing back down,

and the car just went like that on it.

I can't remember much of my daughter's childhood

because I'd completely dissociated away from it.

And that hurts me today, the fact that I can't remember what it felt like to hold her.

Oh, that's hard.

I'd never felt so low in my life, but also so numb.

And I got to a point where I was like, I've had enough.

The drink ain't even killing me, so I'm going to have to do it myself.

Hello, and welcome to another episode of Menace to Sobriety.

I've got a wonderful guest, Olivia Taylor, Addiction and Therapy Coach.

We're going to get right into it.

Welcome. How are you?

I'm very well. How are you?

I'm good. I'm good. We were just chatting briefly before you come on and it's always such a weird one because, you know, I don't, I don't, like I said you, I don't like to delve too much into people's background and stories so the podcast is natural.

Yeah.

But you were recommended to come on by a couple of people, which is very good.

You're obviously a professional in this field.

You've got your own story, which we're getting to.

But I'm really hoping that I'm going to learn some stuff,

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