The following resource is from desiring God.org. You see my little scrawl at the bottom there email death of a husband.

That makes no sense to you. a husband.

That makes no sense to you.

It's a little, it's to trigger my mind I want to tell you in an illustration.

And there's an email, I want to read you.

So this is crucial.

At this point in the in the seminar.

What I'm saying is I have mysteries in my theology.

I have things in my theology

that I, to my own satisfaction and probably to yours cannot give a rational account of.

I don't think they're irrational, only God's irrational, I don't think we should be irrational,

but there are things that at any given point in our lives,

we may not have the ability to press through

to show the complete rationality of things.

This is one of them.

That God chooses who will believe

before the foundation of the world and thus undeservingly because they're all

going to be sinners in Adam undeservingly be saved in spite of their sin and he thus also decides who will rebel by not

choosing he saw and deservingly,

and therefore justly, not unjustly,

be lost.

And this is where Paul's going to go in just a minute.

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