Cutie Cinderella. By the numbers, she just enjoyed the most successful year in her entire online career.

So why does she describe it as the darkest time in her entire life?

I'm Anthony Padilla and I'm going to find out the truths from cutie Cinderella herself. Hello, Blay!

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Now, I feel like we just got to come out the gate and talk about how you are...

Are you known as the Queen of Events? the I know it was possible to just make up an award show and you just made up an award

I did my whole thought process going into it was okay there's a lot of award shows in the

space without ruffling any feathers they do feel a little out of touch.

Yeah.

A few of them I think have just like kind of gotten lost in the production part of it.

They've been outsourced too far that creators aren't a part of it and there's no insight there's no there's no pulse in the community

The cool thing about this one is a lot of people that I hadn't even met came to it

Because it was open nominations from the community so it starts like you can

vote for anybody you want it is which is really nice I don't have I do have a panel but

it's not a panel that's like okay here are you're four and then people look at it and they're like where the heck did that come from and it's because I am only one person I wish I knew every nook and cranny of the internet I don't but I want to I really do I want to meet new people I want people that you've never imagined in the same room together I think that's great you know I wasn't too popular in high school I never really felt like I fit in anywhere and even in this industry I felt like man they

look like they're having so much fun I wish I got invited or like I wish I could be a part of that

I wish I could be a part of that and so I was like well if I'm not getting invited to stuff why don't I just invite people I've always always my entire life wanted to feel included and so if I can be that person that makes other people feel included I'm going to do anything I can to be that person.

This episode is coming out almost right before the announcement for the next one.

Oh shit. So a little leak-sees, leak seas leak seas. Are we leaking it right now?

It's gonna be on March 11. Oh shit March 11 the second annual

The second annual stream awards and the first one was so successful. It was. It had what is it

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