I would say goodnight to God and Jesus out loud every night.

And if I felt like I didn't say it right, I would repeat it.

Within me already was this desire to do things just right every single time.

So this church just exacerbated all of those feelings and then attached religion to it,

attached God to it, attached life or death.

So I was almost a perfect candidate for a cult.

This is Was I In A Cult.

I'm your host, Lizzie Akuzi.

And I'm the other one, Tyler Mison.

Now the guest on our show tell us about their cult experiences in many different ways.

Sometimes they're like, I was in a fucking cult, guys.

Other times they say, holy shit, I was in a cult.

Sometimes it's, wait, was I in a cult?

And sometimes they say, I heard your show and now I'm just realizing I was in a cult.

And some well, they still don't know.

I'm looking at you, Tom Cruise.

I'm always looking at you.

The realization process can be a gradual one.

And many would rather just leave the past in the past, understandably.

Although we have been told by all of our guests how healing and empowering it is to share their stories.

But sometimes without knowledge of what a cult is or how coercion exactly works,

many people will leave cults or cultic environments not realizing what exactly happened.

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