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Welcome to the Blind Buy podcast.

If this is your first episode, please consider going back to an earlier episode to familiarize yourself with the Lord of this

podcast. Thank you to everybody for the kind words regarding last week's podcasts,

where I interviewed the wonderful Sean Roneane, who was an expert on bird sound.

I haven't smoked a vape in nearly 30 days now.

I stopped for a few days while I was feeling unwell a couple of weeks back.

And then I just stuck with it. Let's see how long I can go.

Without smoking my vape, I don't particularly crave it. I only ever had a tiny bit of nicotine in my vape and I don't really notice any health benefits now that I'm not vaping. Like I used to smoke cigarettes years ago.

When you give up cigarettes, you fucking know about it. Your sense of smell comes back, your perpetual cough disappears, but there isn't really

any of that with vapes, but something I am noticing which is quite nice to bring into

myself awareness. I used to I used to bring into my self-awareness. I used to reach for my vape and take a pull out of

it as a type of soothing whenever I'd experience the feeling of frustration, a frustrating thought,

maybe thinking about a job I had to do,

or the frustration of being worried about something, or the feeding of being worried about something

or the feeling of frustration I'd get when I'd think of something

frustrating that's outside of my control.

I would reach for my vape and take a pull whenever a feeling of internal frustration would come up in me for the little nicotine hits and also as a soother just like a baby uses it soother, me as an adult,

experiencing a mild feeling of internal discomfort, a frustrating emotion, and then temporarily distracting myself from that frustration

by reaching from my vape and taking a pull. And now that my vape isn't there, I'm noticing and sitting with feelings of frustration instead.

Fuck, I better respond to that email that I got yesterday.

If I don't respond to it today. I'll have missed the window of response and now I'm being rude. I hope I don't upset the person I need to respond to That's a frustrating thought that then brings in slight

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