So let's just go ahead and rip the bandaid off here. I'm ending the podcast, which I think deserves some kind of an explanation.

It's been seven and a half years, maybe slightly more.

The truth is the podcast has felt like a burden for a few years now.

And I want to be clear, you are not a burden. You, the listener, has actually

been like the second best thing that's ever happened to me in my life. The first is getting married. That was that was dope. But you're like a really close second. I started this

podcast when I was 23 and it's been my entire adult life like since college. But the understanding I have of who I am as a

person has changed dramatically. See, back when I first started, I was a hustle culture addict like I consumed everything the

grant cardones the Gary V's like I was in it I was listening to all the motivational videos. I was

consuming non-stop trying to develop this mindset of someone who could like make it in this world and some of those things that I was doing for myself at the time was working

Insainly hard like insanely insanely hard I was setting clear goals. I was trying my best. Literally everything I was doing.

I was really putting an effort and time and energy to make it something. I wasificing sleep, like full on sacrificing sleep,

four hours a night, all of that.

I was trying to improve my morning routine

and waking up at 5 a.m.

And doing all of the stuff, the cold showers, all of it.

I was incredibly unhappy with my life and I felt like I needed to work myself to the bone

to create something better. And the interesting thing, thinking back on it now, like I never once felt proud of myself at all. I was always sort of deferring pride and happiness and joy to like some weird future achievement.

Like oh I'll take a break or I'll praise myself or whatever once I've done blank and then that goalpost has always pushed.

I've talked about this on the show before. Now here's the thing. Looking back, I cannot say with

good conscience that that doesn't work. My life has changed dramatically in part because

of those things, in no small part. But I've also had a lot of realizations in the seven, almost eight years since.

See, back in 2017, when my dad died,

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