I had moments in Chicago when I was in a period of going out clubbing.

Did you hang out at Arkelli's house?

I don't know, Arkelli's house, but that didn't feel...

I never felt like in danger there. That was more fun.

But when I was in a major club phase, would go out with girls around my age or older

that would go out with really rich guys in Chicago who would get the table

and pay for all the bottle service and take us out to dinner.

But then you'd find yourself at dinner with 70-year-old men.

I knew that I was there to be entertaining them.

And I'm really lazy at the end of the day.

I'm not motivated by money to suck old dick.

So I was like, I had to go.

I had a scenario where I was in.

That also just speaks to my privilege in that situation because I wasn't struggling.

I was just like a spoiled college student.

So I could be like, I got a dip. You're fucking gross.

Well, it just really captured that feeling of like...

Desperate.

Desperate and also like wide-eyed and impressed and young and like feeling like fresh meat.

Especially as like a gay.

Like I remember this person where I was in,

I was at the cock.

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