Hello and welcome to Mattelier is confused. This is Mattelier aka MDs or aka pastor MDs or because

it is fucking motherfucking Sunday fucking motherfucking service.

The Bible says would leave you on. Jesus said that you have power when your spirit comes

down from the throne. Now I'm fed with that promise that has brought new light to me.

And once was lost but now I'm found I was blind but now I see let me tell you that you must have that fire and

hold a ghost without prayer we've turned it that keeps the fire burning of experience that you can feel that makes you move makes you

shy makes you cry because it's real what I've got my hand whoa in the master's hand. Yeah that's what it feels

like that listen to that I mean I know I say a version of this always but it's the fucking truth I wish I

believed in this shit listen how fucking happy these people listen to how watch watch how fucking happy

they are when you watch these camp meetings just fucking Google Jimmy swaggered ministries and then

find a live performance by Lester Rector or Dudley Smith or Jimmy swaggered himself and just

look how fucking stoked everyone is we're watching gator family videos something anything they're all

so fucking thrilled to be here happy to be here and it's just because they're filled with the fucking

holy ghost I am jealous and this is why I've commandeered the music now I'm not bitter I just wish I had it in me to

believe like that but I also don't believe in the tooth fairy I don't believe in Santa Claus I don't

believe in fucking the boogeyman I don't believe in the sandman I don't believe in Nick sandman I wish I did

though I'm reading this fucking book now I'm reading a book now it's cracking my head open I don't

know what else to say is by a dude named Julian James I think it was published in the 80s it's called

the origin of consciousness and the breakdown of the bicameral mind I believe that's the title

it is the least oh shit I was right that really is the title and it's about how

consciousness actually emerged much later than we like to think of it did or that we have come

to think that it did he points to shit like the Iliad and says there's no evidence of consciousness in

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