Hey guys, welcome back to Thicken Thin with me, Katie Bullotti. Hope you all are doing

well today as you're listening to this wherever you are. I have got to be honest with you

guys. I am freaking burnt out. I am tired. I am mentally, physically, emotionally, just like

out of juice, which I'm so grateful I have this weekend to recharge. I have absolutely no plans

this weekend. And as I've, you know, gotten to adulthood, I've realized how unbelievably just

orgasmic it is to have no plans. And I'm one of those people though where I don't trust myself

with having no plans because I feel like when I have no plans, I will scramble to find plans,

you know, because I have this weird fear of being idle. I just can't sit still. I don't know what

that means or what that says about me, but I feel extremely insecure when I don't have something

to do or something going on. And I don't know what it is. It's not that I'm afraid of what other

people will think. I think it's more so. I'm afraid to have too much time to myself to overthink

because those are the moments that I get sad where when I get sad is when I have too much

time to think. So hopefully everyone crossed your fingers and toes for me that I can have an

idle weekend. And you can as well, like on your end as well, if you're one of those people that

is very similar to me in this, I hope we can both have weekends where we're not like

fidgeting in our seats as we're trying to relax because we want to do something that we deem

productive. I think it's been one of those upward crawls for me to accept that doing nothing

can be productive because I just don't take nearly as many brain breaks as I used to.

In college, I feel like I did it all the time. And I wasn't insecure about it because a lot of

my friends just kind of sat around and didn't do anything. And it was just like the college culture.

It was fine. It was one of those things where we were like hungover all the time. And when you're

hungover all the time, you're allowed to just sit around and eat Chinese food and whatever.

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