This podcast is brought to you by Podcast Nation. Welcome to the Real Real, where we go behind the highlight reel and go into the unfiltered.

I'm your host Natalie Barboo and let's get into it.

Hello everybody, welcome back to the real real podcast with me Natalie

Barboo I am scarred from the last YouTube video that I posted for the podcast because I looked like I was like one and a half

feet tall just because of the way that I was sitting like I was sitting with a dress on

the chair but it was like a maxi dress so the dress kind of like you

couldn't tell I was like crossing my legs like this it just looked like I was like so

short and then like my knee kind of popped out and it just kind of looked like I had half of a leg, not like a disability, but like literally like I was cut in half. Like I looked so

disproportional and so no more maxi dresses on the pod unless I'm

sitting with my like legs out because it was just traumatizing for me to look

at I'm kidding it was not traumatizing but it

wasn't the most flattering angle I shall say I guess that's the better way to

put it anyways today I am switching it. I'm sitting on my couch in my living room and I want to talk to you about something that it's been put on my heart to talk about this week and it's because it's something that I've been going through and I don't know about you but I

Have been in the worst rut lately like mentally not in a creative rut actually which usually I get into creative ruts.

This has been just like a really depressing month which is sad because April which it's already

May 3rd but I'm talking about April. April is usually my

favorite month because it's the month it's my birthday. I usually do stuff for

that so I will have friends come in town or I will let go do something and

although I went to California with my friend I didn't have any friends come in town I

didn't really do anything for my birthday which was fine that's not why I was

depressing but I had so much work pressure that I felt like I couldn't even enjoy my like times that I did

spend with my friends or with my family like my parents were here the other week and I just felt like stressed the whole time and they could

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