The My name is Jared Mayor. I've been aware in some capacity or another of my depression

since I was about 10 years old. Although I became, I think, diagnosed, clinically diagnosed with bipolar depression when I was about 24 or 25.

What was that like?

I had reached a point where I was kind of like spiraling out of control.

I was, I was just like the mindset that I was in was completely erratic and it was costing me friendships.

It was costing me, it almost costing me my job at the time.

It kind of put a thorn in a relationship that I was kind of pursuing at the time.

And so this wasn't the first time that this had happened to me. It had happened a couple of times in my early 20s,

earlier than that, like 21, 22. But it was the first time that I felt like I really needed

to get help. So my job at the time offered five like therapy sessions

for free before you needed to kind of like, you for it kicked in with your insurance or whatever.

And so I decided to utilize that and the process with that is

they give you a number to call and then you call that number and they ask you a series of questions like you know what's going on how do you

feel are you have you ever harmed yourself are you considering harming yourself those

sorts of things.

And then you kind of explain like what you're hoping to get,

which is I'd like to find someone to speak with.

And they send you a list of providers in your area

that work with this program so that you know you get your five free sessions or whatever.

And so I picked a doctor from there and it wasn't the first time that I had gone to therapy but it had been the first time in like years and in previous

experiences with that I the doctors that I found I didn't really vibe with very well.

And this particular doctor I got along with right away.

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