Welcome to FitzDog Radio. I'm your beloved host, your leader, your fearless leader leading you into, I don't know, a space of questioning of redemption perhaps.

Maybe some laughs. Let's hope some laughs. I had a huge night last night, you know, it's like this moments in my career and I don't use that word a lot career because it's all just a game. It's all just fun.

And it's funny when you step back and you call it a career, but there's moments that there are also moments in my life. I did my, I did my standup special last night. And I want to thank everybody that came out to the comedy store.

Two shows on a Sunday night going up against the fucking Grammys, but we we sold out both shows. We got a nice group of people.

People people were awesome. And it was it was it was something that was not just a career thing, but it's a personal thing because it's where I see how my friends and family turn out and support me.

Tons of messages, phone calls, good wishes, all the support I've gotten over the last couple months that I've been kind of gearing up for this.

And also I see what I'm capable of in terms of focus and getting myself mentally and physically prepared for this. Like I worked out like I I went after this.

I remember watching Louis C. K get ready for his specials and he would he would run and box. I think he took it more seriously than me, but I went to the gym like five days a week for the last few months.

Really get my head into it.

Meditating every day, going to therapy, talking about shit, I'm taping my set, videotaping it for months watching it, rewatching it.

I didn't jerk off for a month. Today, I will jerk off.

Oh, it's going to be sweet. Oh, to withhold from yourself for that long.

I had a laquerity. I had mental dexterity. And now it will all turn a mush again.

As I whack off to some Czechoslovakian hidden camera massage porn. Oh, baby.

Just closing this thing off on the computer, closing that camera so that the the checks can't see me.

Squinting and sweating. Oh, God, this is gross. All right. Anyway.

Anytime you have these big moments, it's a it's a it's a reckoning. It's a time where you really see what you're capable of.

And as I get older, my memory is not as sharp and doing an hour of material actually took some effort because I I wing it. My standup is very much crowd work, making shit up about where I am, what's happening in the room at the time.

And then I just sort of grab jokes from thin air. I mean, their jokes I've done for way too long, some of them.

But but I don't have been in order and to do an hour, you really have to have it locked down because for editing purposes, you kind of have to do the same set twice.

So we did two sets. I remembered everything.

And it was just a and now the depression sets in because with having something singularly to focus on for the last period of time.

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