Hello diary. This is Bliff. Well that was easy enough. I am trying out a new suggestion from Carmen, my GP, to write diary entries, and while I am writing them, say everything that I'm writing aloud.

Apparently, psychologists in Spere have found that this is a really effective way of getting

one's feelings out and a great part of mental health.

So I can get started.

I almost died today.

I was working by the furnace and Baritone Barry was there and he's on a real banana kick right now and so he was eating a banana and I said, hey, Barry, and Baritone Barry said,

You mean me? Well, I can't, I can't, I can't do the voice.

It's, it's way out of my range but you get it and I clarified that yes

I meant I meant him berry baritone berry and I said can you please dispose of the peel for that banana properly

and Barry said that he would, he assured me, he assured me that he would.

And I was like, okay, and I kept shoveling.

And I want to say after about 20 minutes I stepped back from my

shoveling and I slipped on a banana peel and fell dramatically to whip a canvas sheet off of a barrel and around and then fall,

I fell right onto the pile of Pete that was being shoveled into the furnace.

And I awoke only after Wendell was taking his time at the furnace as I was scooped up onto his shovel.

Thankfully, I was able to scream. I have been practicing lower pitched screams because it turns out that my natural

register for screaming is at a pitch that most members and the crew can't hear. So I awoke

screaming and then I had to remember my screaming exercises to scream at the

lower register and I managed to do that. That was enough to

break Wendell out of his I want to say emotional stupor. I wish I wish that I got close to death less frequently I think there are definitely parts of me that think that this place isn't as bad as where we came from.

There's always something going on there, and there at least is a little bit more downtime here on the ship that there's so many

Co-workers that Jane and I have now that we we actually do get a chance to relax. But it kind of feels like back

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