I wanted to talk to Matthew Long Middleton because he is living a mystery.

I heard that for the last couple of months, you'd been keeping this journal.

Oh, yeah.

And I wonder, can you get it out for me?

Hold on one second. I'll go grab it. What a great start.

One second. This journal starts in March. It's mostly a kind of symptom list.

Wednesday, March 11th, 2020 fever. And then I wrote down right ear at 1059 p.m. 101.2. Left ear, 100.3. Right ear at 1237.99.9.9.

And I wrote, tracking right now helps. This comes in waves. Maybe of panic. It's like nothing I've experienced, but maybe it's because I'm so scared.

Matthew's diary reminds me of little notes I used to jot down when I was caring for newborns.

Bits of data about sleeping and eating. In the end, you think maybe you'll step back and all the pixels of information

will arrange themselves in a way that makes sense. And a lot of times, they don't.

Matthew was keeping this journal because he was convinced he had COVID.

He's still convinced he had COVID.

The whole experience of this virus is so mercurial, both in the micro and in the macro.

What do you mean by that?

My experience of the virus can change from like hour to hour.

It can change from day to day, and it can change from

like week to week.

And so, like, you could be having a really tough three, four hours.

And then all of a sudden, you're like, oh, wow, okay, I'm feeling a bit better.

But only to find two to three, four hours later, I'm feeling a bit better. But only to find two to three, four hours later, what the heck?

I'm right back where I started.

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