All right, we're on. We're recording. What's up? How are you? What's going on?

Good, I'm trying to survive on no sleep, but we're good. I put a post up the other day about feeling like I'm getting back to normal.

Yeah, and I said something in my post about how my feelings are coming back and I don't know if some people took it like a weird way.

And some guys wrote it's because the trend's coming out and I'm like yeah that's probably true.

But I want to I guess I want to ask like are you now that you're not prepping anymore you feel like you're getting back to normal because like certain things I

noticed to get back to normal like last night I slept I think I only woke up once and take a piss. I slept like

fucking 10 hours. I'm peeing less. I'm still drinking a tumb, but I'm not, for some

reason, I think when I'm leaner I peeve more right I just is it because we're

more I'm still drinking because of my kidding thing I'm still making sure I'm like

pounded mortar maybe I'm just holding on my face now and it's not coming out of me.

My face is just blooming in with the water intake.

But I feel more stable, I feel happier.

It's really difficult because of everything's changed all at once. I don't know what's causing the, you know, I don't know. What do you mean?

Well, I feel less stressed this week than it is last week and a week before that, but then I don't

know whether that's because of the drugs fade, like the reduction in the cycle,

or whether we're just more stable with the baby and that was

stressing me. Too many things happen at once for me to gauge, you know, you've been pretty constant in that you just

stop prepping and your home life hasn't changed too much right I can't really gauge it.

Well I'm like it's a few things I noticed like obviously so our dog our dog passed away a couple days ago and I said to my wife I said I'm glad and I don't know I don't know if this sounds bad I don't think it does but I said I'm glad it didn't happen while I was in the middle of prep.

And not because of me, not because, oh, it would have interrupted my prep.

I wouldn't have been able to have been there for.

Like, I would have been like dead inside.

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