Currently, my wife is out of town. We've been married seven years. For the past 20, I have been addicted to pornography.

This is Death, Sex, and Money. The show from WNYC about the things we think about a lot and need to talk about more. I'm in a sale.

Hi, I'd ask that you not use my name or my location. I would like to remain anonymous.

We got this voice memo in the spring of 2016 from a listener I'll call James. He'd stopped looking at porn months earlier at his wife's urging. Now she was away and those old cravings were coming back.

It is hard as fucking nails. For me to want to not do anything about it. She's going to be gone for another 11 days. I'm afraid that I am not strong enough to make it on my home. I hope I am. We'll find out.

Hearing this message made us wonder how more of you feel about porn. So we asked you and a lot of you responded.

Porn? My husband and I both watch porn. We almost didn't get married because of it. I was living this double life of being a good, goody church kid and getting just depraved as hell on my computer every night.

If I'm not having sex, I'm definitely watching all sorts of porn. It's very hard for me to watch porn and not feel like I'm watching women get raped.

I would watch it. I would masturbate and then afterwards I would just feel gross. Even though I confuse the hell out of me, I'm still thankful for it.

I swear every time that I do look at it, I really believe that it will be my last time, but then sometime within the next week or so, it creeps back and then wears me in.

You told us about when you first learned about porn, what turns you on, how you use porn, and why it's caused real problems for some of you.

Porn is also very popular. This episode in fact has gotten more listeners than anything else we've made in our nine plus years of the show's existence.

So we thought we'd share it with you again. Something else we learned about porn? It is hard to talk about.

We use porn in our most private moments. So when I asked you about it, even my most basic questions could sound really intrusive.

Do you watch on your phone and your laptop? You know, it's like desktop. I need to be comfortable.

Phone is easiest. How do you hold your phone up while you're watching?

With my left hand.

This is very technical, technical questions.

At their request, we changed all of the names of the listeners in this episode, including this woman who asked to go by Rose.

It wasn't until she was in her 30s that she first came across porn on her smartphone.

So I was looking at Tumblr and it popped up to my surprise.

And what did you see?

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