Sigrid, I hope you get this tape without too much trouble.

I did my best to disguise both its source and its sender in a hope that it wouldn't get

flagged.

I hope you haven't been too worried.

You know I can look after myself don't you?

You know I'll always come back for you.

You're old enough now to know that I think.

For what?

19?

19 is old enough to have faith in your mother.

I went away once for a while.

When you were two or three I went back to the rest of the family where full of stories

about how you wept for your mama.

She thought you had stopped existing they laughed.

She thought you were vanished forever.

It wasn't funny at the time because trauma is real for a child.

There is no way to tell a small child and infantily that their reality is so much smaller

than anyone else's.

But in time you have come to know how much I love you and how even when I'm not near you

I am with you.

I will be gone and you will know that I will return.

You understand how the world works now and you still have the family.

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