Do you feel ready to do this?

No.

I'll never be ready to talk about what's happened.

But I have a lot to say.

Tonight, my emotional conversation with Savannah Guthrie about her mother's disappearance.

I just, God, where are you?

Yeah.

Where are you?

She taught me to be strong.

She showed me

because no one ever learns anything by being told.

You only learned by being shown.

She showed us.

Tell me what you thought when you saw those images of the person who took your mother.

I mean, it's just absolutely terrifying.

And I can't imagine that that is who she saw standing over her bed.

Someone knows something.

We talk about family, faith, and her future.

So how about coming back?

You know, everyone's wondering.

I can't come back and try to be something that I'm not.

But I can't not come back because it's my family when times are

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