I kept putting myself in danger and I couldn't make it stop.

It rarely felt like a choice.

Though of course, in some ways, it was.

I'm Octavia Bright, co-host of the literary friction podcast and author of This Ragged Grace.

Following my path from addiction to recovery while navigating my father's descent into illness,

it's ultimately about healing, renewal, and finding light in the darkness.

This ragged grace, a memoir of recovery and renewal, is out now in hardback e-book and audiobook.

For this episode, we're partnered with Heritage by Dulux.

Heritage Velvet Mat has a luxury, soft-to-touch paint finish that stands up to the demands of a busy

modern home, available in a beautifully timeless colour palette that allows us to fill our homes

with whichever rich feelings we please.

So, Mum and I have both chosen a favourite heritage colour.

I have chosen the Dulux Heritage Matemotion Paint in Cherry Truffle.

It's a deep, dark cherry chocolatey colour.

So, the cherry in the Truffle is perfect.

It looks delicious.

Or a mind of those brownies that Alex makes.

What the triple threat one is.

You have the triple threat brownies.

Oh, yeah.

Or your chocolate mousse that you make.

Oh, yeah, that nice dark chocolate mousse.

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