We went to Panama City with you know Jackson's friends and their parents which is awesome.

It was so much fun. Good and every night the guys would watch Band of Brothers.

Oh, best show ever. Best show ever.

Best show ever. It really is. It's a brutal, very realistic World War II movie and

but it's there was one scene where it's this guy who's the young soldier and he's just he's in battles and he's just freaking out and freezes and he's just basically standing his foxhole and he's got that look and he's just not doing anything and one of the good

soldiers order just comes up and he says he basically tells him your problem I know your problem is that you have hope.

Because you gotta really he says you have to realize that you're already dead you know and him saying that you're already dead you know and him saying that turns this kid around and he becomes he

just okay yeah and and that kind of to me that

that kind of to me in marriage is the same thing not but hope is not the hope I

saw is that when you're in marriage, it's you die to yourself.

It's this whole trying to cling on to this, you know, your life and you're just the way you want things to be instead of just digging in and saying okay

you don't necessarily lose hope but the hope is in your hope is in yourself and in your dreams

and your own perception the way you think things should go on your own yeah

that's real hope is dying to yourself like in a sense I was a crisis I was

listen to Kevin James he was on Joe Rogan.

Oh, I listen to that too, yeah.

And he was talking about similar thing to that

is he's always struggled to lose weight.

And like, and it was so cool because his insight was awesome because he's like I wrote it down. Do you know remember what it was?

Go ahead. You can go for if you wrote it was just like the there's a louder voice saying don't do the thing but you need to let your weaker voice be the boss and the

weaker voice says no we're gonna do this thing even though you're the loud

voice at the time was like don't't do it, sit on the couch,

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