This is Jenny Allen and you are listening to the Made for This Podcast.

What's up guys? We're back.

What's up guys? We're back week three. My name is Kate Summers. Used to be Kate

Allen and I'm here with my mom. My name's Jenny Allen and I'm her mother. She's taking over the show.

Done the intro, you're pro now. Listen, here's the deal. This week we're talking about how we all try to evade emotions at some points in our life.

Even if we know that they're good, even if we know that we need to go through a season of grief, we can still feel reluctant to do that.

There's a good reason, as we've talked about in the last episode,

that we control and conceal and cope with our emotions

rather than actually feeling them and allowing them to serve the purposes God intended.

I get that. There's a lot of reasons that we push it down. So there's a lot of grace here as we've said over and over again for this because it can be difficult

to feel these emotions so let's start with just kind of talking about our go-tus in

this world and I'll go first I mine is control as I talk about in the book I feel like that one is the one I think I can I think if I will

decide in my mind if something feels worth feeling or not and then I'll usually

decide it's not worth feeling what's the purpose and I'll decide not to feel it.

And I do better if I'm just doing things. So after your dad had his little TIA stroke and he's in bed for two weeks and I'm in the middle of if lead and leading all of that and I'm in the middle of parenting and keeping the house

together and taking care of him. I remember like falling apart maybe two different

times and truly like just grieving or I couldn't even speak I was crying so hard

imagining the worst and then at some point it's like well what's the point I

have to get through and let's do this thing like let's take care of what needs to be

taken care of today and I know as we've talked about before that serves a purpose

for a season but if I stay in that mode and I never actually grieve it I think what happened with you and me

Like I talk about in the beginning of the book. I think that fear of abandonment so I when dad was potentially dying and and it's not like his blood pressure got fixed quickly, right?

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