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For 15 seasons now, I've thought about and been asked about sharing my own story.

It's honestly just never felt like the right time for me to go public with all of this until now.

So much of my own story I've honestly never looked into. I've never spoken to the witness at my brother's murder or read many documents that are out there. I needed to focus on my kids, my family, my livelihood, and then something was wrong and keeping it afloat through COVID and the economy crashing,

and just general worldly chaos. And honestly, I've shared this before, but I'm really afraid

of, like, my parents suing me because that's what they fucking love to do. There's a lot of reasons why I've put this off,

even though I'm a very extroverted introvert, ambivert, is how it's called? Like, I love people

and I love human connection. I've been so focused on the show and telling other people's

stories and it just didn't feel like the right time.

I also am really afraid of my parents.

I also don't want them to have any excuse to contact me,

so there's been a lot of fear and shame,

a fear of like, if I share this and I share my father's crimes,

or the things about my family that I feel

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