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It's November 7, 1971 in Westfield, New Jersey.

Father of three, John List, had just spent the afternoon murdering off his family one by one.

When he was finished, he looked down at his nice suit that was now covered in his children's blood.

John cared a lot about his appearance, and he didn't like being dirty,

so he went upstairs, washed himself off, and changed into a new suit.

He had almost everything in order for his escape.

The last thing he had to do was write a letter to his pastor, a confession, if you will.

So once he was dressed, John grabbed a pen and paper and sat down at the dining room table.

Dear pastor, Railwinkle, I am very sorry to add this additional burden to your work.

I know that what I have done is wrong from all that I have been taught,

and that any reasons that I might give will not make it right,

but you are the one person that I know that while not condoning this,

will at least partially understand why I felt I had to do this.

One, I wasn't earning anywhere near enough to support us.

Everything I tried seemed to fall to pieces.

True, we could have gone bankrupt and maybe gone on welfare,

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