The following episode contains graphic material and talk of suicide that may be triggering to some audiences.

If you are in distress, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255

to be confidentially connected with someone in your area.

People kept telling me, like, you have a story and tell, like, you have a reason for me.

We may not know what it is, but I feel like it's connected with what happened to you.

And basically, a lot of people are telling me, like, you might not be able to change your

circumstance, but you'll be able to change someone else's life.

You're going to be able to make an impact.

I can't help but look back and think all the way back into the day that I killed my dad,

trying to shoot myself that day, and the gun being empty all the way until now.

Countless suicide attempts, things that normally would kill someone,

so I can't help but think like make there is a reason that I

define the odds and I guess every day is about trying to find that reason even after telling my

story trying to use what happens to make a change to better other people's lives because there

are some of the people out there who probably don't feel like they have a voice.

And it's taken me almost 10 years to feel like I've even had a voice.

So I guess my point is that at the time, like, you feel like it's over and it never really is.

We've come to the final episode of this special series, but is it really the end for Crystal Howell?

Once a lost and struggling teen, a product of her unstable and tumultuous upbringing, Crystal

has accepted the responsibility of taking her dad's life.

Now that you've heard all that she went through, did she get the sentence she deserved?

It is a topic that is widely contested and hotly debated should tell. Did she get the sentence she deserved?

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