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I just remember all of a sudden just being like, oh my God, I don't feel good.

Previously, on the retrievals.

It was an unfathomable amount of pain, and I remember begging them to stop.

Yeah. I remember begging them to stop. And one of the attendings, she looked at me and told me to tell her that it was okay.

That's one thing I regret the most that I didn't say, like, it's not okay.

I felt horrible.

And then I got mad.

And then I got really mad.

From serial productions in the New York Times, I'm Susan Burton, and this is the retrieval season two, the C-sections.

And I got really mad, and I was like, I am going to talk to the provider. I don't even know what to say. I'm so angry.

Usually this scene happens in a hospital corridor.

There's a template for this. One doctor dressing down another, maybe shouldering furiously

out of an OR, stripping off gloves, throwing them into a bin with an emphatic gesture,

and turning to face their colleague.

The one doctor, passionate and outraged about what just happened in that room,

and another who we can tell did not make the right choices, but genuinely feels bad.

How it happens on our show, in real life, is Dr. Heather Nixon is at home in pajamas on her day off.

She just learned that her colleague, Clara, was in agonizing pain during her C-section.

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