And the Royce to 5.9 is a brilliant MC with one of the sharpest pens in the game,

but his music and his life really changed when he finally got a handle on his drinking and now his sobriety is something he cherishes.

I know when you when you're dealing with quitting and sobriety all that stuff

you got to look inside yourself at like who you are who you really want to be and one of the

things I've been thinking about a lot is that deep down inside most of us are either

scared, angry, or sad. What in that resonates most for you about yourself?

I think anger maybe I know when I started going to therapy I started to be able to

draw a correlation to a lot of traumatic things that happened during my childhood,

you know, like between my mom and my dad, you know, and it's, it's, there are things that I didn't realize bothered me as much as they did, you know what I mean?

So like growing up, you don't, you never get taught how to communicate especially in a

black community no therapy is not it's not presented to us as any kind of

amenity or just option you know I mean.

That's some white shit.

Yeah so we we suppress.

We suppress all our feelings and that's our way of dealing with them and then you know like

we become masters that just taking it and putting it somewhere, you know, whatever that feeling is, we just put it over there somewhere, you know, like, skid it out of the way, so I don't got to deal with it. So you know like and it it grows it grows as you grow and you know when I decided to start drinking I took my first drink with Dr.

Drake at 20 I was 21. What was it?

What was it? What was it? I think it was Bacardi. I think it was a shot of Bacardi or something.

And I said yes because I didn't want to say no, you know, and I started drinking, you know, and I didn't start off super heavy you know I just you know one day

turn into another day you know like you know once I broke the ice with me drinking it was just like

it was easier for me to just be like yeah in the next when the next situation presented

yourself you know a year passed by two years passed by I look up and I'm drinking every single day

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