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In my house, I have a bulletin board where I put up photos of the people I love.

My husband, my family, including my nieces, and of course my two cats.

In the top right corner, there's a picture of the most beautiful little girl.

She has long blonde hair, the bluest eyes I've ever seen, and the most adorable smile.

You can see she's bright, playful, smart, and innocent.

The photo melts my heart every time I look at it.

The girl in the picture is Mika Jordan, a girl who's become a part of my heart every time I look at it. The girl in the picture is Meika Jordan, a girl who's

become a part of my heart, but I never got to meet. I'm Nancy Hixed. I'm the crime reporter for

global news. I've been doing this for more than two decades. I see some really bad stuff,

and I deal with some very dark subject matter.

For the most part, I think I've learned to compartmentalize.

I cover the stories but I try to put the really bad stuff in the back of my mind where I don't

have to see it.

And then there's the cases on the crime beat where that doesn't work.

The ones I have dreams and flashbacks about years later.

Mika Jordan's story is one of those.

I'm Nancy Hicks, and this is the crime beat.

As a journalist, sometimes I lose track of time, meaning I can barely remember what I did yesterday

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