Rerelease | Lana & The Violent Jealous Abuser

Narcissist Apocalypse: Patterns of Abuse

Abuse Survivor Network

Relationships, Society & Culture, Education, Self-improvement, True Crime

4.7 • 796 Ratings

🗓️ 10 June 2026

⏱️ 93 minutes

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Summary

In this rerelease episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Lana shares her story of growing up as a fixer, surviving childhood abuse, and later entering a relationship with a jealous and physically abusive partner who used love bombing, blame-shifting, addiction, sexual coercion, and violence to keep control. What began as intensity and romance quickly turned into accusations, isolation, fear, and repeated physical abuse. Lana explains how the abuser's jealousy became a weapon, how his addiction was used as something she was supposed to fix, and how the relationship slowly trained her to doubt herself, shrink her needs, and survive by going quiet. It's a story of coercive control, IPV, sexual coercion, victim playing, belittling, shame, fixing, child sexual abuse, sowing the seeds of doubt, fear, isolation, gaslighting, blame shifting, love bombing, trauma bonding, addiction, minimization, crazy making, self blame, bad police officers, intimidation, rage, depression, low self-esteem, disappearing acts, and jealousy.

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0:00.0	On this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, we talk with an abuse survivor named Lana, and Lana was in a controlling relationship with a jealous physical abuser.
0:11.2	It's a story of childhood abuse, coercive control, sowing the seeds of doubt, fear, sexual coercion, and shame.
0:44.3	Welcome to Narcissist Apocalypse, everyone.
0:51.1	I am Brandon Chadwick, and with me today, we have Lana.
0:52.1	How are you?
0:54.0	I'm good. Thank you for having me on. Well, thank you for being here. And if you want to be a
1:00.4	guest like Lana is today, please do go to our website at Narcissistapocalypse.com. Top of the page,
1:06.7	there's a button that says guest form. When you click on that button, it takes you to our guest our guest form page there you can read all of our instructions and either send us an email at narsisist
1:15.5	apocalypse at gmail.com or fill out our guest form and press the submit button and please do send it
1:21.1	in the format that we ask for and today we are going to hear Lana's story, and this is not an easy story to hear.
1:30.9	So a big content warning for this episode.
1:34.7	We will be graphically discussing child sexual abuse in this episode, graphically discussing
1:41.2	as well physical abuse throughout the second half of this episode and as well
1:47.4	graphic discussion of sexual coercion abuse assault in the marriage as well. So a big content
1:55.8	warning right there. If this is not for you, then please do not listen to this episode, as it could be
2:01.8	re-traumatizing for you. And this is also not an easy story to tell to go through all of these
2:08.3	memories once again. So a really big thank you to Lana for being here, and I'm going to get out
2:15.4	of my way and your way.
2:18.1	Lana, the floor is now yours.
2:23.2	I grew up in the military.
2:25.6	We moved every three to four years.
2:28.3	My parents had actually, what they liked about the military was that they could move.
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