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Why hello everybody, welcome to the P.H.P. I'm Booker. He is Perez.

How are you? I think I had a weekend that was maybe similar to a lot of people like it was a pretty shitty weekend

Yeah, there's a lot happening in our country right now that I wouldn't say is anything new it's hard for me maybe it's easier for other people

to unplug but I know when everything was going down especially on Saturday I was even in the freaking beach. I was feeling so

shitty. I was like I need to go to the beach, I need to be in nature, I need to be by

the water, the ocean that's calming, and even at the beach I was feeling a little bit better but I still

was also just glued to my phone seeing what was happening in the developments by the minute

and also just obsessing about that and obsessing about like this shitty awful thing that happened to me personally.

The short version of it is, somebody told me, flat out explicitly said I had a gig. This was three weeks ago,

for the last three weeks in my mind I've had this job. I've been preparing for this job and then on Friday I got a call saying it's not happening and I can't really tell you why

so that my mind started racing and all of these emotions and awful things and I made a whole video about it.

I don't need to rehash it.

It was a big opportunity and I was already preparing for it and imagining myself and how my life would change as a result of this and how it would be good for my family and

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